To my dearest first-born,
Today you turn six.
In the blink of an eye you have grown into a little lady –
with bright blue eyes and freckles scattered across your cheeks. Seems like only yesterday they were laying a
dark-haired cherub on my chest and telling me I had become a mother. Seems like only yesterday I was holding you
in the crook of my arms as you slept and nursed and slept and nursed. Countless hours were spent gazing down at
your beautiful face wondering how God could have given me something so
wonderful.
You truly are the most wonderful thing that He could have
given me. You made me a mom – and
initiated me into the most prestigious club in history. My life would never be the same.
And I’m so very grateful to have you as my daughter.
You are such an amazing little girl. So full of life. So passionate. So eager to make a new friend. I love seeing your relationship grow with God,
how your unwavering faith lets you see the world in a new light. I love how compassionate you are – always
concerned about the less-fortunate and ready to fight the good fight.
You are such a mama’s girl.
I love that you’re not too old for my lap, that you always are ready
with a cuddle and an I Love You, that
you sneak up to our bedroom every single night and make yourself a bed on the
floor… just to be close to me.
You are an artist.
You amaze me with the things that you draw and color and create. You spend countless hours sitting there
dreaming up beautiful things on paper and then adorn our fridge with your
masterpieces. You are my creative
spirit.
You are a leader, with a mind of your own. You know what you want and you persevere to
get it. And nothing seems to stand in
your way. I love to see the
determination in your eyes when you set your mind to something. And I love seeing you work hard to get it.
You are a pink-aholic.
Your daily request is to get to wear something pink, eat something pink,
buy something pink. You don’t care if
it’s pink pajamas or a pink dress or the ugliest pink shirt with scratchy pink
fleece leggings. Along as it’s pink,
you’re pink-erific.
You are a big sister.
And although most of the time you seem to care less, when I do catch a
glimpse of the love between you and your sister, my heart melts every
time. I know deep down you and Little
Goose have forged a forever friendship
and that is all I ever dreamed of for you.
You are you. No one
could ever compare to you. You’re sweet,
you’re talented, you’re turning six and you’ve got an amazing life ahead of
you.
Happy Birthday my blue eyed angel. I will love you until the end of time.
Love until the end of time,
Mama
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I began this blog
counting my sorrows of how I didn’t want my little girl to grow up. How I cried this morning and I cried this
afternoon and I cried again tonight just thinking how the last six years have
flown by and my heart is aching that I’ll never see those years again. But then I realized that although it hurts to
see her grow, I want her to see how I really saw her on her sixth
birthday. I wanted her to read beyond
mama’s sorrows to the amazement I feel when I look at her. When I think of her. And in fifty years when I’m gone, she’ll know
how very proud I was to be her mama.